Is this all? 17 years and all i can recall is trying my best to work my butt off but failed to, finally till the most major exam in my life so far that i worked my hair off(only). And now, i find myself in the same situation where i have difficulty focusing in my studies. D:

Been in a daze these days probably cos of that day's incident. Been thinking, wondering, but nothing comes out of it. Then next thing which is semi occupying my mind are the 2 assignments due next week. Gosh. School's been slack enough but i still hate books to the core. I wanna do something i like, something fulfilling and able to give me that sense of satisfaction where i'll never get from those dead books.

This is like falling into a bottomless pit, you know it's bottomless and you wont hit the ground so you dont worry to have to feel the painful thud. But, there's still this constant fear inside. I mean go take a roller coaster and you'll know. It's everything of the feeling minus the thrill. Right.

Shopping today with Daddy is the only happy thing i can recall so far(the rest wasnt sad, it wasnt happy either that's all). Yep. He bought me a housey keychain to replace my old keychains :D Time to change everything, especially when it's a replacement by something irreplacable. *smiles.

I feel better ending off with Daddy. (=

And ya! Natty was being so funny on the car. Wlao! Hahahha! I so wish she'll learn driving NOW so she can fetch me home next time since she's moving to 100 m away from my house soon yay!

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posted by ariel at 7:46 PM